THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN
- finding someone aesthetically pleasing
- being sexually attracted to someone
- being romantically attracted to someone
“And in the end, we were all just humans.. drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness.”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald (via coyotegold)
I know that life has changed for you. I know how you’re feeling. Like you’ve just stepped out of the ashes and it’s a new you. I know you keep talking about it, how you’ve let go of so many things that held you back, and in many was that was (and is good). You are going to learn a lot about yourself this summer and even more this fall. You are going to be in love with a boy that will screw you over continuously for the next four and a half years. But don’t worry, in those years you are going to fall in love with two other boys and they are going to love you back. You are going to do so many great things but you won’t realize it until it’s maybe too late because you’re going to be focusing on all the bad things. You are going to get depressed and you are going to ignore that for the better part of three years. You’re going to start drinking, smoking and you’re even going to try drugs. Don’t worry, it’s just marijuana and you’re not going to like it that much. The first boy you’re going to fall for is tall, sweet and handsome. He adores you. You are going to have amazing sex but you are going to resist getting into a relationship, partially because you ‘want to be free and single’ and partially cause you’re waiting for him (and all the other boys) to screw you over. You are going to be together for eight great months and then it’ll be summer, you’ll be young and stupid and free. You will be depressed, but you will get through it. Just remember that the boy you’re holding your heart out for, the one you think you’re totally over - is not going away so soon. It’ll be in October 2013 when you (hopefully) finally realize that you’re never going to love him the way you used to and that you deserve everything better. You do. Remember that.
You are going to travel, graduate, go through family issues and school. You’re going to gain some friends and lose a couple. People are going to move away and you’re going to be hurt, but you’ll always try to remember that some people just come into our lives to teach us lessons. You’ll see paintings by Van Gogh, you’ll get to see Lady Gaga perform twice, you’re going to see Kings of Leon, you’ll move to London, you’ll get rewards for the debate team, you are going to love a man even more than you’ve ever loved yourself and he’s going to write you poetry and love letters. You are going to have amazing sex, laugh, cry, smile and live, live, live.
You are going to grow up to be an amazing woman. You are, trust me. You are going to love, live and suffer and that will teach you everything you need to know. You are going to try new things, get into new jobs and you are going to face your depression head on. You are going to learn so many things about yourself but it’s going to be hard. It’s a battle but remember, you can be the hero. You are the hero. You are going to get your heart broken in a way you never thought you would. And you’re gonna want to throw up and die, you are even going to try and kill yourself. Don’t worry, you call your best friend and she gets you help. You are going to suffer even more, depression is going to define you for a couple of months but you are going to make it, TRUST me, you are.
You are going to university, you are going to study films. You are throwing lectures on depression, you are getting praised. You’re going to start a blog with your friends, you’re going to be on national television. You are going to see a shrink and you are going to be better.
You are going to talk at a local TED event. You don’t know what that is yet, but it’s a major deal.
You are so small now, and you have no idea what the world is going to throw at you. You are so banal, naive at the moment. Just remember that I love you because you are so sweet and hopeful. Remember that life is going to break you - only for you to rebuild.
You are going to do so many great things. You are going to learn the most important lesson there is, the one thing you’ve always struggled with. You are going to learn to love yourself.
Just hang in there kid, we’re gonna be fine.
THIS MOVE YOU GUYS MADE ME CRY SO MUCH THIS MOVE I SWEAR
Lesson I’ve learnt the hard way
Today’s Classic: Edmund Dulac (1882-1953)
1. Wagner, 1928-1931
2. Chopin, 1919
both by Boleslas Biegas
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“People of all sexes have the right to explore femininity, masculinity—and the infinite variations between—without criticism or ridicule.”
– Leslie Feinberg (via spredtheluv)